It’s like..
You don’t think you could love this person any more or any less, and then it happens. You feel invincible in the most profound way and any lover before them becomes obselete. You start to see a change in yourself. Your selfish needs have been demolished and all you want to do is give them more and more of you. You start to believe that you may be insane, wanting to do nothing less than please them in every way. You start making silent sacrifices, just so that you could spend moments with them that are the most precious.
It’s like..
Even the mere thought of them being with someone else turns your heart inside out and that there becomes your motivation for giving them your all and sprinting out of your comfort zone just to make them feel like number one and that no one else could make them more happier than you. You never want to fail them, never. You’re ready to give your whole life at such a young age. And everyone judges silently because of their bitter experiences and failed attempts at trying to feel something that’s not there.
And it’s like..
Everyone’s staring but you never really noticed because the only thing you see is that one person. And every bitter experience and failed attempt at trying to feel something that wasn’t there all paid off because you found each other. And all you know is what makes you feel, what gives you the most high and the most love and the most happiness you’ll probably never even sought to imagine.
It’s like..
You just want to be there by their side to witness their greatest and most proudest accomplishments just to say, “I never gave up on you even when everyone else did.” They make you the proudest. And even when they fail, you look at them and in your eyes, they have prevailed anyways.
It’s like..
If you had no belief in God, you do now. And you found God in them. You worship their very existance and rejoice to the Almighty because he has created such a miraculous person. Even science couldn’t create anything more beautiful and full of life.
It’s like..
Every argument that you ever had with them is forgotten because you both of you just want to see each other happy. And there are more things in life than to be stuck in the past.
And it’s like..
Regardless of people’s beliefs, when all else fails, you will be there for them and they will be there for you. And you love them to the very core of your soul.
>>He is the first person to ever bring me flowers, and just for the heck of it. I probably didn’t show it, but I reaaaaally appreciated them and it meant more than a lot to me. Well… the flowers eventually died, so I put some of the petals and leaves that survived and imprinted them in my journal like I learned how to do in kindergarten, so I’d always have something to remember the first time a guy has ever brought me flowers. It’s dorky, I know. But that’s just me.
>>I am thankful for the man who has my heart and gave me his in return. I am thankful for the God that gave me such a blessing, I am so proud.
>>You know the feeling you get when you finally get out of a bad relationship and you are finally content with your new life, but it’s like your past won’t ever just let you be?
Well thats how I felt. And unfortunately still feel.
It’s like no matter what I do, I cannot have a life if it does not somehow include him. Like, it’s been two years since we broke up, just let it go. Please. The reason why this gets to me is because 1) he is not a good person and 2) something is really psychologically wrong with him and it’s scary. He really needs help, and this is coming from the most sincere part of me. Also, it was like this since I could remember. We were off and on from my freshman to junior year in high school and every time we broke up I remember how every single day I would come to fifth period crying because he would constantly manipulate me and say things about me which only stopped if I got back together with him. And if he found out that I was actually happy, having a good time, and maybe even start talking to a guy … it got worse. And it made me depressed.
I’m truly happy with my new lifestyle, my new friends, and I feel as though I’ve found someone I can wholeheartedly commit to. God was good to me and I am blessed, but it’s like he’s never going to grow up and he’s never going to let it go so he continues to find ways to communicate with me directly by texting me or indirectly by stalking my best friend on Facebook (whom he does not know at all and only figured out we were friends because I happen to be in her profile picture). And it just hurts. It drives me crazy that someone could be this determined and selfish to interfere with someone else’s happiness. It’s like it doesn’t make a difference whether I ignore it or say something, he knows deep down that I’m hating it and he’s getting pleasure out of it.
>>A friend of mine from my sociology class came into class yesterday with the most upsetting look on her face. I asked her what was wrong and she said that she was bullied out of a dance team in her dance class because she wasn’t skinny or Asian. She also said that the girls humiliated her in front of the entire class, and pointed out her “flaws”. She has been dancing all her life and she is damn good at it, but she decided to give it up because of what these girls did.
That is just the most disgusting thing you can do to someone. Exclude them from something because of the way they look and because they were born of a different ethnicity than you. And I guarentee these are the type of people who are infuriated with unequal opportunity and discrimination, but they turn right around and do the same thing that they hate. I don’t usually curse that much but these are some insecure, hateful, ignorant bitches. I am done.
>>I’ve got five minutes so here it is:
School will be the death of me. Not really, I realized I work best under pressure. I’ve got to study for a test tomorrow, a paper to revise, and a sex paper to write. I wanted this, so I’m going to work for it.
Also, from the pictures I posted a couple days ago… Chelsea had a party last Saturday.. It was craaaaaaaazy. And the pictures were clearly before the party lol
And I am, and always will be, in love with Alex :) We’re doing amazing.
>>People get offended by the truth, but hate being lied to about it. They’d rather live in la la land than to be given facts.
>>Today in my Human Sexuality class, I learned that abstinence is only 74-100% effective. Let me explain this thoroughly:
- Getting caught up in the moment. If a person or a couple do not plan to have sex, for however long (a month, year, until marriage, never, etc), and get caught up in the moment, where is the contraception? How are you going to be prepared for something you didn’t plan for? Yeah we can say “Well don’t have sex if you don’t have protection blah blah blah” but most of us know it is hard to say no when you’re caught up in the moment (not that people don’t).
- Dry humping, rubbing the penis around the vagina, teasing, etc. First off, understand what pre-cum is. It’s obviously the clear substance that comes from a males penis when he is really horny/about to cum. Pre cum does not always have semen in it. When a man has ejaculated previously by masturbating or having sex, they might have not ejaculated all of their cum. So when women get pregnant from pre cum, it is practical, not probable. People can get pregnant even if they don’t have sex.
- Some people have this idea that if it’s not vaginal sex, it’s not sex. So some people, instead of vaginal-penile sex, they perform oral and/or anal sex, which is not protecting you from an STI or pregnancy (unless you are using a method of contraception - the pullout method is not one). You can still get an STI from performing one or both of these if the person/people you are doing this with are infected. Scientists are looking into reasons why more and more people are getting throat cancers and infections, and they think the leading cause may be because of oral sex. And you can still get pregnant from anal sex if the man ejaculates on your butt or inside of your anus and somehow comes in contact with the vagina.
I personally support abstinence. I think if you’re going to commit to it for however long you do, good for you. That is great. But it’s not a contraceptive protecting you from becoming pregnant or protecting you against STIs, its a personal choice or lifestyle and you may or may not do it for certain reasons; everyone is different.
>>There are too many kids dying, and for what? A parent should not have to bury their child. That is the most depressing thing to ever have to go through.
>>Imagine waking up to the face of the person you love every morning, still wrapped in their arms from the night before. Imagine the feeling you get every day when you get to kiss that person, hug them, smile because of them, and make love to them. To fight with them, cry with them, and go through hell and back with them. But you do it because you love each other and you would fight for them, just like they would fight for you. Imagine having them to protect you from all the hurt and the pain and the struggles, or a least be there to comfort you. Imagine that that person hurts when you hurt, cries when you cry, and would do anything to see you smile. Because they love you way more than they could ever explain with words and they hate to see you frown. Now imagine going through life without them. Imagine how even though it was hard, its even harder without them, because no one made you feel more alive than they did. No one was there for you more than them. Imagine that instead of you making them happy, someone else is doing a better job at it. Don’t take them for granted and don’t give up on them, because life is one big struggle; but if they make it a bit more easier, they are worth fighting for.
>>To succeed is not to have a big fancy job, with a big fancy car, with a big fancy house with a big fancy family in it. Success is self-defined.
>>I’ve decided to start making a bucket list of things to accomplish in summer 2012. It may be 7 months from now, but it will fly by so fast! This is my top 5:
- Go to a music festival with friends. I’ve always wanted to do the whole “outdoorsy hippie thing”, just hang out with some friends, get a blanket, listen to some music, and kick it.
- Take a mini road trip. My Aunt knows a lady with a beach house in South Bethany Beach, who only charges her $70 a night! (I went twice, it was amazing!) The house can fit 12 people max, so even with 10 it would be $50 for everyone for a full week :) It’s about 25-30 minutes away from Ocean City and it’s just beautiful out there. I want to take lots and lots of pictures, sober or not :) And just be young and wild lol.
- Get a whole new wardrobe. Because I need it lol. Bright colors will do :) I want to try something different.
- Go skinny dipping in a lake. I’ve been skinny dipping in a pool before … well lots of times haha, but I want to go to a lake with a bunch of friends and go skinny dipping.
- Just have fun! This past summer I’ve been to a few parties, but I really want to get out next summer! It could just be sitting out with some friends having a drink, but I want to keep myself busy with plans. And work. I would loooove to have a job again -__-
